Moses is arguably one of the most important figures in the Jewish and Christian religions. Often, he is depicted as a wise and mighty leader, boldly standing before his people with the two tablets containing the ten commandments. Or maybe he is depicted parting the Red Sea and leading his people out of slavery. Yet I always think of him before all of those great moments, when he first met God at the burning bush. He was alone and scared, full of excuses and self-doubt. Yet still, he had God’s trust.
Living with depression and anxiety causes me to doubt myself. Constantly. So for me, having a biblical figure that doubted himself, that tried to back away from God when he met Him at the burning bush is comforting to me. It reminds me that God sees us, even if we don’t see ourselves. It reminds me that God knows us, loves us, and trusts us, even when we might not know and trust ourselves.
It is moments like this that remind me that God is with us, and even at our lowest, God carries us. Moses might have doubted that he could carry out God’s will, but God knew and trusted that Moses was the right person for the job. It makes me believe that being worthy in God’s eyes isn’t about being perfect.
Because it isn’t just Moses who God trusted in. Throughout the Bible, God chooses and trusts in those who are not at the highest spots in their lives or in society. He chooses the outcasts, the flawed. This trust that God offers to those who might be struggling gives me comfort and helps me find my own trust when the depression and anxiety threaten to take it away.
And even if faith isn’t your cup of tea, the way it is for me, chances are you have someone out there who trusts in you and believes in you even if you don’t believe in yourself. And believing in that can be such a powerful way to push back against the demons.
Trust me.
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