I spend a lot of time thinking about what to share, what not to share, and how I can ultimately make this site better. Looking through the numbers though, it seems what people want is more of my cat Ginny! The little furball is stealing all my glory!
It is humorous enough, and she is definitely photogenic enough to be worthy of the attention, but it does slightly bother my impostor syndrome. I mean, if a cat is outperforming me, maybe that means that I am not as good as I think I am.
And thinking about this has led me to several conclusions. First, I am not as good as I think I am, nor am I as bad and unlovable as I think I am. Objectively judging yourself is one of the hardest skills, in my opinion, one that is made doubly hard when you have a mental illness and triply hard when you have a cute cat stealing some of your attention.
The second realization is that it is not about me. Memes, viral videos, and highly liked Instagram posts are literally powered by cute cat photos and videos. Seriously, if future archeologists look at how we used the internet, some might think we worshipped cats as much as the ancient Egyptians.
And the last thing I have to remind myself is to not judge myself against anyone. Even a cat. Because that just fuels the demon of impostor syndrome, the demon that lies and tells me that all my accomplishments are a mistake, that I am not worthy of the good things in my life. I am. And the only person I have to be better than me is the me from yesterday. Will I always be a better version of myself? No, of course not. But it is something to strive for. And it is a lot better than comparing myself to others.
And I am certainly more productive than the cat, who just sleeps most of the day. Well, usually I am more productive. Anyway, since that is what people seem to want, here is one more picture of Ginny cat.